Breath of Hate set photos - August 14th 2009

SPLINTER

Splinter....also known as: The Movie I Wish I Had Made. First off, I deal with a lot of bad movies on an almost daily basis. Some of them are cheesy CGI-monster fun, like the turds that repeatedly churn through the SyFy (Ew, still HATE their new name) channel's weekend line up. Some of them I have to watch for some business reason or another. And some I actually make...sorry about that. My point is, though, that I see so many truly terrible films that when one comes along that is genuinely good I put my nerd hat on and squeal like a little girl. Such is the case with Splinter.

Plot-wise it follows several of the rules low budget horror films should: Small cast, unknown actors, mostly one location, just add monster...it works, though with their "low budget" I could easily make 5 or more movies, so, ya know, anyone who would like to give me some money to do that, feel free. I'll admit that none of these characters are particularly likable at first, if ever. The baddies are bad, slimy, scuzzy folk that do little to redeem themselves and our goodies drive me a little nuts. I'm always bothered by the "sassy defiant tough girl" and the "useless girlie man who can't change a tire or pitch a tent" (take that how you like). I realize these stereotypes are in place for a reason, but they still bug me.

That being said, the action picks up quickly once our two couples meet. Before long they all must fight to survive after encountering a large spiky critter lookin' for love...or at least for a good warm meal. From this point forward the film plays not unlike a more contained and violent version of Tremors with a creature more like the Critters, mixed with the body-horror stylings of David Cronenberg. Perfection (pun intended).

About half way through watching this short little nerdgasm a funny thing happened: I had to turn it off. Anyone who knows me knows I only turn off a movie for one reason, and that is when it is so epic in its badness that I can't stand it for even one more second. I usually end up having to watch movies like that in several parts just to get through them. Now in the case of Splinter I turned it off for a completely different reason: it was freaking me the hell out! Seriously, I am so seldom freaked out by movies that I couldn't figure out how to process my own freak out. I felt a rising panic in my gut when turning it back on, how weird.

For the first time in at least several years, I watched a movie at least partially hidden behind a pillow and oh my God did I have a good time doing it! First of all, the very nature of this monster gets down to some core issues that many people have, I mean, who isn't freaked out by the idea of something sharp being lodged under their skin, flesh, or fingernails. I cringe just thinking about it. Now add a parasitic element and super heat-seeking abilities to the mix and I'm pretty sure you've got the stuff nightmares are made of.

Clocking in at a tight 82 minutes Splinter never lets up, never disappoints, and never fails to make its audience shudder, cringe and weep. With my horror nerd hat placed proudly on my head I would like to say thank you Splinter, thank you for not only not sucking, but for bringing it. My standards have just gone up a notch.

My big little

Tadg is now two months old, he smiles a lot and can spin himself all around on the floor, he bats at toys, pulls his sisters hair, and grabs things...I'm so happy and so freaked out all at once. So big already.

He just gained another pound in three and a half weeks, all with momma's milk, which is new and exciting for me. It means a lot to be able to do it right for once. And he's long and lean like his big brother. He went from 22 inches to 23 and 3/4 inches in less than a month! Yikes! I knew there was a reason he kept logging me out of websites with his toes when I'd nurse him.

He's precious and amazing, and in another interesting note, our pediatrician said he doesn't think our oldest has autism....what?! I did a total spit take. I wish I believed him and I certainly would like him to be right, we'll be looking into that more soon.

And on a side note, feel free to click on any of the new links on the right side here, we could use the help and it's fun stuff for you at the same time! =)

And now that it's 4am, I sleep.

Random Randomness

Sometimes you just have a weird run in life, the past few weeks have been like that. I have a two month old little boy, sometimes the reality of that is overwhelming. Sometimes I think, "Wow, 2 months old already, seems like I was just pregnant," but lately I'm having a hard time even thinking about when I was pregnant, like it didn't happen. I guess that's a good thing, I know I was completely miserable but it's already a blur.

The past few weeks though, they have been a crazy mix of good and bad, often within minutes of each other, most aren't worth commenting on, though I am sad to mention yet another passing: Clayton Hill. Honestly there have been so many deaths lately it feels like there has to be some sort of greater force involved. I really need it all to stop.

I've been in a fashion funk lately, and trying to think of new ways to generate more income, improve our family quality of life, and recover some of my sense of self, including getting back to the few girlie things I love: hair stuff, bags, and maybe some necklaces and hats here and there. All would be better if I had time to sleep, but it doesn't feel like deprivation for some reason, guess in some way I'm just enjoying the trip. The crazy, blurry, random days of life with a young babe.

Like now, it's 2:40 in the morning, I am sitting here with my hair half cut, I have a mullet basically, I look ridiculous beyond belief, I know the baby will wake up to nurse in an hour or two, I should be fixing my hair, but ya know, this just seemed like a better usage of my time. My month of August is already almost completely full so I'd better enjoy any randomness I can right now.

Shooting a new movie called Breath of Hate starting in about a week, really excited about this one. I came in late on this project but I'll be on the next one from day one, and I'm happy to ease back in to it instead of jumping full on a new feature this soon after Tadg was born. Finishing up a handful of DVD projects as always, to round out the summer I guess. And as always, if you have PR needs, particularly in horror, please send 'em my way. Doing a lot more PR now than ever before and I'm leaning towards more of that and production. This concludes my completely random pitch for money...unless of course you want to invest in a horror film, that would be swell. =)

But now it's 2:45 and my hair needs my help before I pass out, or nurse a baby, or get hungry again, or any of the other million little random things that tug at me all the time. I know I certainly won't be going to visit websites with cute little items I don't need that Joy showed me...no, not at all...not me..........

We had the same baby three times...

Weekend Approaching

Six week growth spurt combined with new projects spinning in the air makes mommy a tired lady. If tomorrow goes as planned I have 4 meetings to get through with a nursing 6 week old in tow. I am definitely looking forward to resting on Saturday, though strangely I'm not doing too bad right now and I've only slept 4 hours in the past 2 days.

These precious things....

My family is the most precious thing in the world to me. Maybe I'm becoming prematurely cantankerous but I find myself less and less willing to sacrifice the things that are important to me for certain things, even if it means taking a financial hit. I have recently found that if I am just careful about how I manage the day there is plenty of time for me to get all my work done, do school stuff with the kids, and not have to give up nights and weekends. I do not need to be constantly on the phone talking business at 10pm, I do not need to spend my weekends talking a client down, I am perfectly capable of getting it all done during reasonable hours during the week. I used to be very diligent about keeping office hours and over time I've let that slip considerably, and with that slip my misery has increased more and more every year. I am returning to keeping regular office hours other than pre planned special events or legitimate business emergencies. And emergencies do not include bad hair days, whining, or random pep talks. My family needs me, and I need myself before I become lost in the shuffle, I've been living like a machine for too long.

And what brought all this on? The other day I was frantically trying to work while the baby napped, the girl was with daddy at work, my older boy was doing puzzles.....then the power went out. Ok, no big deal, it will come back on any minute, like it always does...right...right? No. Hours went by, we confirmed with the power company that there was an outage in the area. It was miserable and hot, we don't have air conditioning and with no power I didn't have the fan blowing on me, I didn't want to open the freezer and risk defrosting my frozen breast milk so it was horrible. Then the battery in my laptop died, then my cellphone battery died. So no computer, no cellphone, no possible way to work..believe me, I tried. And when I started to get panicked over not being able to work I realized that I am working way too much. I should be able to embrace and welcome a break like that, just quiet peaceful time where work can't reach me. So I did. I opened the front door and back door to get a cross breeze going through our place, and the sun coming in, it was just beautiful and I felt a huge weight lifted. I did some scrapbooking I've been meaning to get to, wrote some thank you cards for the baby, did puzzles with my son, nursed the baby, and just had a nice time. I've decided that I can't mentally do without moments like these so office hours are in folks.

My in laws have a nice outside area they can enjoy like that all the time, when we're ready to buy a house I definitely need a nice peaceful outside place. I'll be spending more time reading outside, enjoying the breeze, enjoying my kids and my husband, and I am not going to feel at all guilty for taking the time that I am my family deserve. It's a beautiful thing, we all need to take the time to slow down and realize what really matters. It feels good.

Tadg is one month old and smiling!

Tadg at 3 weeks

Three Weeks Old

It really does go by ridiculously fast, how do I have a three week old already? Things are already slipping into something of a routine around here. Work has certainly started back to full force, though it takes a lot longer to get certain tasks done with only one free hand to type with...ahhh, nursing at the keyboard, good stuff.

The bigger littles are sweet and helpful and lovey...when they're not busy trying to kill each other that is, but they both seem to adore their baby brother. Things are going well, this kid has some crazy hair that's spiky and longer already! He kind of reminds me of Stephen Geoffreys in Fright Night right now...poor kid. I really need to take some new pictures this week to capture the hair in its natural state.

I really need to write up the birth story while it's still fresh in my mind, just been so busy. Though really, life with three isn't that bad, lots of people warned that going from two to three was a nightmare, and granted it's only been three weeks, but so far so good. The only hard part really seems to be balancing work along with it. Life with three and homeschooling and working from home is definitely a little challenging but I think as long as I am extremely careful about how I spend my baby-free (meaning baby not attached to my boob) time then I'll be alright. And of course as he gets bigger it will be even easier.

I'm feeling pretty great, a lot closer to healing than I felt last week. Looking forward to getting back on the tread mill and figuring out some core strengthening stuff so I can finally lose some weight and do the cool stuff I used to love doing like hiking and checking out cool new places. I think soon we're definitely going to have to do a new hike or road trip...something...anything...starting to get cabin fever big time.

And briefly, business seems good, getting clients gigs as usual, possibly picking up some awesome new PR clients this summer, and working on several DVD projects and movies in smaller capacities, Orgy of Blood is almost done with post and we've gotten some great press from Fangoria and Dread Central so far, I've got more in the works. And once I get back into full on swing I've got some really exciting projects coming up that I absolutely cannot wait to get started on.

Oh, and Platoon of the Dead came out on DVD this week! Get yours at Tempe DVD. =)

Introducing TADG WILLIAM MICHAEL!

TADG WILLIAM MICHAEL
Born Friday, May 29, 2009 @ 5:59pm
8 pounds, 10 ounces, 20 inches long

Monday Monday.........

I'm up before 10am and actually functional, guess it's a sign of things to come, or exhaustion to come, whichever it is, I'll be up. Still waiting for baby to come, looks like a definite Gemini for me, at least all my kids will be different signs.

Mission home organization has been going very well the past few days, I can't get enough storage bins and containers and labels oh my. On top of that I've been able to deal with my normal work load again now that feature film production has ceased, and I've even been able to do some long overdue tasks with filing and paperwork that REALLY needed doing.

Hell, I've even been able to catch up on doing the kids journals and scrapbooking, I wish it was always like this...but maybe with the new organization and home office set up it will stay this way at least most of the time. Then again, I'm probably just hyper focused because of nesting and will soon be thrown into the chaotic and odd-hours world of the newborn. I feel ready...mostly.

Neglect and Change

My poor neglected blog, my poor neglected soul...mostly me. I haven't had time, or more correctly, have not been making time for all the things that help to keep me soul feeling good. I have got to stop doing this.

My life as I knew it basically slipped away into chaos sometime before February. At the beginning of February I was dealing with some really intense client stuff, thankfully most of which has now been resolved, on top of that I had a brand spankin' new PR client (still do have him thankfully) that needed a lot of attention, and was in production on a feature with a very tight shooting schedule in the middle of nowhere....nowhere with lots of giant spiders. All of this was going down during my pregnancy, which has definitely been the absolute hardest one I've had.

This pregnancy has been pretty much total misery from day one, I'm so glad to be having a new little one, I'm practically giddy, but finding myself bitter over not having the time to concentrate on that joy and love. I've been dizzy and nauseous and tired the entire time, and big, just extra big, despite not actually gaining weight, I lost weight, not from puking either, just something I do I guess. I was so weirded out by this crappy pregnancy that I got an ultrasound, which I am usually against, to make sure it was just one baby. And it was, or so they say, one big old hyper baby who is already rivaling the other kids as most challenging child, and he's not even born yet. So yes, it's a boy, or so they say...again, I won't be 100% convinced until he's born. =)

Anyway, on the set of that movie in the middle of nowhere an email came through for another project, and pretty much within days of finishing one movie I was thrown into active and heavy pre production on another one, this one much bigger than any before, and much more complicated. I'm actually very proud of how it went down, the crew I got together, the people, the whole thing, but I won't say it wasn't very hard at times. I'm still dealing with it actually, along with about 8 DVD projects in various stages of completion, hoping to get all of those wrapped up by July and by then will likely be working on several more...that's good, income, credits, life moving ahead, all of these are good things. Might even grab one or two more PR clients in the summer just to keep things going, after all, we'll have a new baby to support soon, and we just bought a nice new minivan to hold us all, which I am freakishly excited about.

There have been so many ups and downs the past few months. It would have been easier if I wasn't feeling so awful and lethargic and shaky, but I sense the end of these bad times coming. In the middle of production on the film, my long time dear friend, and client, Lou Perryman passed away. It was not natural, it was not expected, and I'm filled with a giant empty space that sometimes over flows with rage over the loss of him. He was so positive, finally, moving ahead, I loved him, I still love him, and I owe him more than to be screwing up the one life I've got by not taking care of myself. We ended every call with I love you darlin' I am so grateful for that being my last words to him.

After that, we managed to finish the shoot, mostly, and had a great Easter full of fun with the kids and their little Easter baskets, dyeing eggs, and it was so sweet and dear. Then the second bomb dropped, another long time friend passed away, Marilyn Chambers. I've known Marilyn since before my husband was my husband, she bought the first outfit my firstborn child ever wore, she felt my belly when I was pregnant, she joked with us, she was awesome. She was cranky sometimes but her style of temper was amusing and playful and sweet and somehow it made me love her more. Marilyn passed away, of natural causes, on Easter...she was way too young and I miss her terribly. I last saw her in October of 2008 when we sat together at a convention in Ohio. I miss her hugs. I made a promise to both Marilyn and Lou, and myself, that I would write about them at length and put it up on my main site and on here, this is a start, but nowhere near all of it. A month later I am still completely overwhelmed with sadness and shock that they're gone.

Which I guess brings me back to now-ish. My little boy just turned 4 years old, 4! That just seems impossible to me. We had a great party for him which I'm so glad we were able to pull off with everything that's been going on. My daughter is 2 1/2, and I'm due pretty much now with another baby, it's possible I'll have two little boys that are May born Taurus babies...in a way I hope I go later and this little guy sneaks in closer to June and is a Gemini, just so they each have their own time. I do not want to force them to share birthday parties if I can avoid it. Though I am scared to have a Gemini, there is no stopping them. =)

So here it is, late May, and I'm just waiting on a baby, and nesting, and cleaning, and working, and not sleeping enough but eating very well. I'm making some changes and some decisions on how best to keep the things around me that are most important going and somehow balancing work along with it. And for the extra hard days in between, well, I keep good coffee and candles and bubblebath handy.

I'm still alive...and it's my birthday

Wow, I haven't updated in way too long. I've been way too busy to even really have a life or a soul lately. Finished a movie, am heavy into pre production on another one, all moving along very quickly.

But today, today is my birthday, and it's conveniently on a Saturday, and I declare this day mine all mine. So I slept until after 3pm, am eating and doing whatever I want whenever I want and generally enjoying what will likely be my only mellow "me" day for at least another 6 weeks or so.

Hopefully after we finish shooting this movie things will calm down for a few weeks so I'm not so busy, and then of course once we head into May the boy turns 4 (4! when did this happen!?) and I'm due with our third later in May. Once that happens I completely plan on not really sleeping again until at least sometime around Christmas.

Anyway, don't lose hope, I'm still here, and I'm still working...and if you're wondering what I'm watching these days...that would be Wall-E, as both the kidlets are completely in love with it right now. =)

Down on the Corner

Movies I watched in 2008

I stole this idea from a friend. In 2008 I kept a list of every movie I watched, even if I watched the same movie more than once. I am deeply annoyed that I made it to 198 movies, just shy of 200. That aside, here is my movie list of 2008:

1. Alien vs. Predator Requiem -2007
2. Alvin and the Chipmunks - 2007
3. Fred Claus - 2007
4. Resident Evil: Extinction - 2007
5. The Crossing Guard - 1995
6. The Bourne Identity - 2002
7. The Bourne Supremacy - 2004
8. The Bourne Ultimatum - 2007
9. Chain of Souls - 2001
10. Saw IV - 2007
11. Boogeyman 2 - 2007
12. I Am Legend - 2007
13. The Hitcher - 2007
14. 300 - 2006
15. Poirot: Murder in Mesopotamia - 2001
16. Poirot: Five Little Pigs - 2003
17. Wrong Turn 2: Dead End - 2007
18. Eastern Promises - 2007
19. Flight of the Living Dead - 2007
20. The Ferryman - 2007
21. Pumpkinhead 4: Blood Fued - 2007
22. Black Sheep -2006
23. Masters of Horror: Dream Cruise - 2007
24. The Breed - 2006
25. King of the Ants - 2003
26. The Mist - 2007
27. Crawlspace - 1972
28. Walk Hard: The Dewey Cox Story - 2007
29. Juno - 2007
30. Word Wars - 2004
31. Wendigo - 2002
32. Invasion - 2007
33. Trekkies - 1999
34. The Rock - 1996
35. No Country For Old Men - 2007
36. Orgazmo - 1998
37. Munchies - 1987
38. Bowling for Columbine - 2002
39. The Bad News Bears - 2005
40. Trekkies 2 - 2004
41. Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street - 2007
42. Monster - 2003
43. Who Framed Roger Rabbit - 1988
44. Thunderpants - 2002
45. Death Sentence - 2007
46. Rambo - 2008
47. Ice Spiders - 2007
48. Werewolf in a Women's Prison - 2007
49. King of Kong - 2007
50. There Will Be Blood - 2007
51. Night of the Living Dead 3D - 2006
52. The Devil's Daughter - 1973
53. The Great Debaters - 2007
54. The Black Dahlia - 2006
55. Hannibal Rising - 2007
56. The Heart Is Deceitful Above All Things - 2006
57. Easy Rider - 1969
58. Satan's Playground - 2006
59. Totem - 2004
60. Bug - 2006
61. Murder Set Pieces - 2004
62. Jack-O - 1995
63. Captivity - 2007
64. In The Valley of Elah - 2007
65. Beowulf - 2007
66. Southern Comfort - 1981
67. Wind Chill - 2007
68. Fleshburn - 1983
69. Sasquatch Mountain - 2006
70. Abominable - 2006
71. Notes on a Scandal - 2006
72. Sicko - 2007
73. The Corporation - 2004
74. 3:10 to Yuma - 2007
75. Jason X - 2002
76. Chaos - 2005
77. Alice Sweet Alice - 1977
78. The Number 23 - 2007
79. Night of the Demons 2 - 1994
80. Witchboard - 1986
81. The Sixth Sense - 1996
82. Commando - 1985
83. The Evilmaker - 2000
84. Abomination: The Evilmaker 2 - 2003
85. Waxwork - 1988
86. Vulgar - 2002
87. Nightmare Man - 2006
88. Brutal Massacre - 2007
89. Waxwork II: Lost In Time - 1991
90. Wrestlemaniac - 2006
91. The Last King of Scotland - 2006
92. Pumpkinhead - 1988
93. Pumpkinhead - 1988 (again)
94. Jimmy Carter: Man from Plains - 2007
95. Casino Royale - 2006
96. Rocky Balboa - 2007
97. Volcano - 1997
98. Aliens (director's cut) - 1986
99. Transformers - 2007
100. Enchanted - 2007
101. Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark - 1981
102. Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom - 1984
103. Eaten Alive - 1977
104. Sundown: The Vampire in Retreat - 1989
105. The Devil Wears Prada - 2006
106. Bulletproof - 1988
107. Cloverfield - 2007
108. Burnt Offerings - 1976
109. Scanners - 1980
110. Robocop - 1987
111. Charlie Wilson's War - 2007
112. The Last Sect - 2006
113. Supergator - 2007
114. Michael Clayton - 2007
115. The Business of Being Born - 2007
116. P2 - 2007
117. Jumper - 2008
118. Searching for Debra Winger - 2002
119. Diary of the Dead - 2007
120. Blood Diamond - 2006
121. Dante's Peak - 1997
122. Silence of the Lambs - 1990
123. Lone Wolf McQuade - 1983
124. In Bruges - 2008
125. Thank You For Smoking - 2005
126. Logan's Run - 1976
127. Satan's Cannibal Holocaust - 2006
128. Corpses - 2004
129. Teeth - 2006
130. The Girl Next Door - 2007
131. Magus - 2008
132. Dark Remains - 2005
133. Gimme Skelter - 2007
134. The Bucket List - 2007
135. The Cook - 2008
136. King Corn - 2007
137. The Abyss - 1989
138. Children of the Night - 1991
139. Spiderman - 2002
140. Doomsday - 2008
141. The Car - 1977
142. Eraserhead - 1977
143. Aliens - 1986
144. Star Trek II: The Wrath of Khan - 1982
145. Circle of Iron - 1978
146. From Beyond - 1986
147. August Rush - 2007
148. The Horror Convention Massacre 2 - 2008
149. Lethal Weapon - 1987
150. Commando - 1985 (again)
151. Black Snake Moan - 2007
152. Black Swarm - 2007
153. Swarmed - 2005
154. V for Vendetta - 2005
155. Terror Firmer - 1999
156. Lake Placid 2 - 2007
157. The Sandman - 1996
158. The Hunted - 2003
159. Grindhouse - 2007
160. Mirrors - 2008
161. Batman: The Dark Knight - 2008
162, Killer Pad - 2008
163. Tremors - 1990
164. Monster Squad - 1987
165. Stardust - 2007
166. The Bank Job - 2008
167. Pumpkinhead - 1988 (again, new Widescreen transfer)
168. Monster Squad Forever - 2007
169. Jurassic Park - 1993
170. Killjoy - 2000
171. Max Payne - 2008
172. Tropic Thunder - 2008
173. Ricco The Mean Machine - 1973
174. Golden Eye - 1995
175. Flu Bird Horror - 2008
176. The Savages - 2007
177. Forgetting Sarah Marshall - 2008
178. Lost Boys 2: The Tribe - 2008
179. Trailer Park of Terror - 2008
180. Savage Harvest 2: October Blood - 2006
181. Road House - 1989
182. Animal House - 1978
183. Hellboy II: The Golden Army - 2008
184. Erection - 2009 (not yet released)
185. Tremors - 1989 (again)
186. Gremlins - 1984
187. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory - 1971
188. Iron Man - 2008
189. Savage Harvest - 1994
190. Sodoma's Ghost - 1988
191. Quantum of Solace - 2008
192. Dirty Dancing - 1988
193. Savage Streets - 1984
194. Silent Running 1971
195. The Incredible Hulk - 2008
196. Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull - 2008
197. Die Hard - 1988
198. Incubus - 2002


WHEW! Interesting year. Kind of sad that the last movie of the year was Incubus (Jess Franco) but oh well. Maybe I can break 200 this year.

HE posters and promo stuff

HE, a film by Creep Creepersin is wrapped!

Yes, we managed to actually shoot a movie just a few days before Christmas, and a day or two after and ended up with HE. This is my third film with Creep Creepersin, each one better than the last. We're gearing up to do another early in the year. =) Here are some photos from our shoot: